I was just reading this article on Life Hacker and it hits pretty squarely on some of my thoughts about religion.
http://lifehacker.com/5907299/embrace-the-supernatural-how-superstitions-placebos-and-rituals-encourage-you-to-achieve-your-goals
I feel like once I pulled back from religion and going to church, the whole God and Jesus thing became less real. So it seems like it's only real if you choose to believe it and make it real. Absent the constant encouragement to see the world a certain way - i.e. going to church and listening to sermons and other people talk about their "God experience" - it ceases to be real and true.
To be honest, since I haven't be "interacting" with God, he hasn't been interacting with me either (as far as I can tell). If he was a real entity and we were in a real relationship and he loves me regardless of what I do, why wouldn't he still at least try to maintain some connection? Why isn't he "calling me up" so to speak and asking me what's up? Surely he can see that I'm still interested. I'm taking the time to write this blog and attend a bible study and read books on the subject. So you couldn't entirely argue that since I've walked away from him he's just letting me be (or has gotten mad and walked away himself perhaps).
It just encourages me to think that God is more superstition that real person. Is it just self-delusion? I don't want that to be true. I want something to hope in. But I want that something be real, not a figment of my (or someone else's) imagination. Someone please tell me that Richard Dawkins isn't right.
